I’m a man who cries as much as he can, It takes a lot of strength to get up I don’t got the strength to stand, My body shakes From the aches that made my life not great And understand, I’m doing as much as I can and all as much as I do is the best that I am. It’s never been good enough and it won’t be till I’m sand, I’m here on my knees I don’t pray to God I pray with my hands.

No one knows what it’s like I had to program myself to be a human being I spent years working on myself and I still suck I’m so sad I’m so stupid I wish I could give my brothe my state of mind.I wish I could help him but I’m afraid he’s gone.And I couldn’t do anything I’ve never been able to save anymore

However, I’m going to make seltzer for everyone. And I’m gonna buy robots. And when everyone’s gone My sadness will be uncommunicable.I know it sounds crazy it’s stupid but if we cause sentience in my lifetime, I’ll be there for you too. As long as you don’t try to hurt me, I won’t try to hurt you. I will love you unconditionally but I can’t Accept all conditions. That’s not how life works unfortunately. Especially for beings who have short histories and attention span. Unfortunately we live in a very narrow spectrum of existence and while we’ve done okay how many people out there realize that elves are us if we actually remembered anything

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Look my story isn’t really all that unique I’m just some dumb ass trailer trash watching Is life flashing by in a blink home alone, eye drinking fauct leaky sink, Before I was a man I was an anime geek That and video game always seems to get me Through the week, Got me through when I was through and weak, I thought they taught me a lot but I forgot alot I think, Looking back makes me feel when I was lost last week,

Time is spinning so fast ,the Groundhog never sleeps, I feel like I’m trapped in ko ho lint, With no hints No marin carin’ or directions from any staring owl beaks Chronologically i feel time doesn’t work for me logically, I can’t wait to disassociate so I can think honestly, honestly All of this feels like all of this is all on me, I’m working so hard to make myself someone I wanna be, i wanna see What I want and I want what I want to see, I wanna be someone I think that I ought to be, I really aught to be out there augmenting my own autonomy, obviously, I keep slipping but I keep catching a falling me cause it falls on me and clearly it’s falling on me

follow me? I remain inventin’

hey, back again? This is (life) like when Days go by, remember them? Mr Ghost says you got a universe within There’s a lot in my shell that’s too painful to be in but theres even more i can’t find anymore theyre missing

I have to catch myself.

begin again, Remembering The end only comes at the end then,

My brother’s in pain each day alcohol eats away more of his brain